I feel like thinking about myself

Hello, I am looking for a discreet relationship, I have a partner, but he is from Asturias and I am from Santurtzi and the distance is taking its toll. I feel lonely at times, I want to talk, have good conversations, laugh and love. I never thought I would do this, but you have to think about one... that life is only lived once.

I know that at my age, it´s hard to find single people, or people who don´t have a partner. I am 58 years old, separated 10 years ago, I thought I would never want to have a relationship again, but time makes you forget the past and you want to find positive people. I don´t want to live with anyone, but I do want a partner to spend our time free together.

I always thought that the world would end for me if my relationship ended, we had been together for 8 years, my first boyfriend and the one with whom I thought my life would end. Well, he left me overnight and you know what? I was screwed but I decided to enjoy it and hey, I never thought I could enjoy my life as much as I am doing. I´m not looking for love, of course, but I do want to have a good time. You help me? That simple

I can´t with people who are politically correct just to look good. I can´t deal with people who talk too much and do little good. I am educated but sincere and I don´t care what anyone tells me because of my way of thinking. I look forward to whatever comes up, I start thinking and I don´t care if it´s a stable relationship or a temporary thing, but what I do want of all is to have a good and beautiful friendship. Sometimes I think if this will be good or not, but I want to try and enjoy it.

I am a girl who pays attention to both material and sentimental details. I like to take care of my surroundings and surprise why not because Mr. wants to and I want to. I am looking for a stable relationship, something wonderful but simple. I´m 26 years old, they say I´m young to have a partner and think about the future, but I think otherwise.

I´m here because I´m looking for a partner, I´m not one for going out and I´m not one for interacting with new guys just because, it´s hard for me to be in a bar and approach a guy like that right off the bat. I don´t do well in relationships with guys with that "hard face" of getting involved and talking, which I know isn´t a bad thing, but the rejection hurts my face. Sometimes I think that it is the fault of my self-esteem that I must have it low although I love myself very much but I always think that I am not enough for others.

Sometimes I need to try a little harder to open up because I´m afraid of looking bad or of people thinking strange things about me. I am very shy and I think that I am inferior to the rest. I don´t like feeling that way but I make myself small. I want to leave my insecurities and let myself be known. I would like to fall in love but it doesn´t just depend on me. I am looking for a boy with patience and who is affectionate. I would like to meet in person and relax and enjoy a little chat.

Living alone has its good things and its bad things and one of the good things about it is that I do whatever I want and I invite whoever I want to my house hehe. Another good thing is that from time to time I have parties and I have a great time with my friends and also family... But the bad part is that I would love to have someone welcome me home after work or to know that after I arrive, For example, my partner is coming and it is something that I miss very much... I really want to find a partner...

With the desire I have to live my life, I think it would be a mistake to tie myself back to a stable relationship to suffer unnecessarily again. Right now I´m in that stage of living and doing whatever I want, having something sporadic and having a good time is all I need at this very moment.

I´ve been thinking for a while now that why not be alone, I don´t feel like committing and when I try to start a relationship I get tired quickly and end up leaving her so I´ve made the decision to stay single so I can continue enjoying sex the way I like because I don´t think give it up. What are you telling me?